So, G and I have been on "the same page" about creating a little one for several months now. The plan was to stop taking the pill in March, use a back-up method for 2 months (recommended by the doctor) and then see what happens. Well. It's July 12 and I should have gotten AF (aunt flow) on Monday or so - and she still hasn't popped in yet.
Let me back up a minute...on Saturday we joked "hey we could be pregnant!" and "that could be your last glass of wine!" while we shared a nice dinner at The Pit. Earlier on Saturday I picked up a box of CLEARANCE pregger testers. They were half price - hey, this was a good deal - these things aren't cheap. This is all preparing for several months of trying. Well, no red on Monday and no red on Tuesday...so, I told G I was going to take a test on Wednesday (7/11) morning with morning pee (it's the best kind). He was also going into work late (he normally leaves before I get up) and I knew I wasn't doing this alone.
So, I got up - grabbed a red solo-cup (the only way to take these things-brings a whole new meaning to that song, doesn't it?), filled 'er up, dunked the stick in the cup, laid it flat on the counter, ran back to the bed and put on a two minute timer. G was wrapping up his normal morning shave and was in charge of reading the results....
G: Well...um...it's kind of faint, but there's definitely something there.
Me: (Running into the bathroom) Are you sure?! Let me see.
G: I am sure.
Me: You don't think this can be real, right? I mean, this was really the first month. And, it's early right? I mean, technically I could still get my period?
G: I don't think these things give a false positive too often.
Me: Oh my gosh. I am trying not to get too excited in case this is not for real. (crying).
(Lots of hugs, smiling and uneasiness)
G: Alright, let's get ready for work and maybe test tomorrow - let's stay calm until you test again.
So, we called and texted a lot throughout the day. And all day I'm thinking things like this:
I shouldn't have had that deli meat on my salad last night. How am I going to not tell anyone this. I won't be able to wear those cute red pants I just bought. What if my period comes today? What if someone can tell what's going on. When would our due date be? Am I going to be a good mom? We are ready for this, right? I shouldn't have lifted that really heavy box the other day. Oh no, that wine on Saturday!
And then I get on FertilityFriend.com, create an account and search through other E.P.T "faint line" test results taking place days 28-30 of cycles. I think I spent an hour looking at other ladies' pee sticks. This was like crack. I couldn't get enough.
So, after watching Magic Mike with work friends after work, I sneak into Target and buy another box of tests. Thinking: I'll get a different brand - that may make a difference. And a really expensive one. I am sure that makes a difference, too since those were CLEARANCE for goodness sake. I get home around 10 and G's friend is there. Seriously? Get him the heck outta here because I need to get my pee on! He leaves and G and I agree that I should take the test "right now" and not wait for morning pee. And what do you know...two pink lines. Not faint, perfectly solid.
That leads me to today. I made a super secret phone call to the doctor's office. It went something like this...
Me: I received a positive pregnancy test yesterday. Well actually, two of them. And, I know I need to make an appointment. And, I am not sure when you'll see me - or how this works, I usually only see the nurse practitioner, so I...
Receptionist interrupts: Honey - we'll schedule you for a nurse talk visit and an ultra sound when you're about 8 weeks. When was your last period?
Me: June 11
Receptionist: Okay, the earliest we could see you is August 3rd.
Me: I have to wait that long?
Receptionist: Yes, it's just how it works - it's when we can do an ultra sound.
Well then, I guess I don't have a choice: Okay. But I can't come on August 3rd because I am leaving for the mountains that morning - what about August 2nd?
Receptionist: Let's look at the following week - what about the 7th?
Me: Okay. And my husband will want to come, is that okay?
Receptionist: Yes - he sure can - that is fine. And, we can go ahead and schedule your first OB appointment, are you available on the 15th for that?
Me: Ok. I mean, yes - that will be fine.
Receptionist: Great - we've got you down. I will be mailing you a packet of information and paperwork. I'll also include appointment cards for reminders.
Seriously? How would you forget these?
Receptionist: Do you have any questions that you would like our on-call nurse?
Me: YES. Yes, I do.
Of course I get transferred and have to wait a few minutes. They were really long minutes. When we get on the phone I ask her all kinds of stuff: so, if I feel weird or if anything happens I should call you, right? (yes) I have a dental cleaning coming up in two weeks - should I go? (yes - skip the x-rays) I have an eye exam later, too - is that okay? (yes - no numbing of your eyes). I have a hair color appointment early August, should I cancel? (yes - no hair coloring until the 2nd trimester). Should I keep taking the prenatal vitamins I have at home? (yes - as directed) And then a lot more questions. I didn't want to let her off the phone. Poor lady. I am sure she thought "sweetie, other people are trying to call to tell me their water has broken - how about you call back." But, I hung up and called G and told him the dates. He said he could make both and we agreed to chat after work since I was at work hiding in a recording studio to make these phone calls.
So, here we are. Day two of knowing we're pregnant and not able to share and still unsure that everything is okay. Praying that everything is safe and healthy. And if not, praying that we will be comforted and have peace knowing that whatever happens is God's perfect plan.
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