Hidden Post Series: And the silence continues.

Monday, July 16, 2012
So, it's Monday - a week after I should have started my (.). And, after taking several home pregnancy tests, it's true. We have kept this secret to ourselves for almost a week! And every cramp or weird feeling I get, I can't help but wonder "is the baby okay?" - I am so afraid something is going to go wrong.

Since I found out last week that I am with child, I cut back to only drinking about half to 1/3 of my cup of coffee. But, this morning I went cold turkey. I am doing okay for now - and I should be fine after a few days of headaches/sleepiness. I think it's best to just quit altogether instead of just having a little bit. Plus, I feel like I was weaned last week with only taking literally 5 sips. Lucky for me, I rarely have soda...I think the last time it was while in Disney World.

We decided we should tell our parents. At first we wanted to wait until the first check-up. But that's so far away. And, if anything should go wrong (which would be heartbreaking) - we would want them to know. So, the plan is to tell my folks on Saturday and G's on Tuesday (which is his mom's birthday). From next Tuesday, we'll be 2 weeks away from visiting the Doc. And hey, that's four more people sending up prayers, right?

I keep telling myself (and G also tells me) that I am doing everything right. Everything that I should be doing to keep both of us healthy - and if something goes wrong, it was God's plan. So, I keep telling myself: Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

Am I feeling any different yet? TMI ALERT!
Well, I noticed Saturday morning that my boobs hurt REALLY bad to press on or lay on. I have had a lot of cramping. Not constant - but strong, period like cramps that last about 5-10 minutes and then disappear for a couple of hours. They started on Friday, 7/6 - which is normally a sign that my period is going to start - but it didn't. And, they haven't really stopped since then. I have starting peeing more often - but, it could be that I am trying to drink A LOT of water. So, it's hard to tell which is the cause.
Here's to waiting!